still fucking fuming. i swear if i see her again. i'll strangle her to death. such deceit will only suffice me when i've taken my revenge.

but then again is it enough to satisfy me?

to the girl~ the one i care for now
sometimes i feel like you don't care. sometimes i feel like i don't want to care for you anymore. i just feel so unappreciated even though i care for you. your mood and temper sometimes just flies way off to pluto while mine still hangs around for you waiting for you to fly back to earth again. i don't know how much more i can take nor how much further i can last. the more it happens the more i want to ask why. but the more i do. will only make you unhappy. i don't like leaving things as it is. but the more i want to understand more. the more you stop to put a block. i can't understand and i don't anymore.
one moment everything seems perfectly fine. the next it just falls apart, goes down to bits, i don't know, can't comprehend either.
i remember telling my friend on friday night, the more you ask, the more pain you'll get, because the answers can't be found, that's why we suffer pain.
i wish you were here, to tell me everything i want to understand, everything to make me understand, because i just don't anymore...